A work in progress

In March/April 2010, something clicked and after months and months of being sad about how “chubby” I had gotten, I realized how disconnected I had become with my body. I wasn’t listening to what it was telling me or craving, and I was putting it through hell. At that point, I was working at least 9 hours a day, if not more and then coming home to a pile of homework and housework.

When I first started back to school the first thing I did was cut down on sleep, which was the exact opposite of what my body needed. I became more and more anxious and irritable (my poor husband!) and to make matters worse because my body and mind were beyond exhausted I started skipping more and more work outs. I was completely burnt out and not taking care of myself and the pounds just started packing on. Although, I was still eating relatively healthfully my portions started getting bigger and bigger which I think was due to stress and lack of energy.

After about a year and half of this pattern, I had put on about 3o lbs but worse I had completely lost sight of m self. I loved cooking, working out, sleeping and generally being good myself.

*This is probably the only time I will talk in numbers, I am much more concerned with getting my strength and confidence back, fitting into my clothes again and re-learning to listen to my body.

I look very bloated.

Isn’t my niece adorable? At this point, I had completely lost all the tone in my arms.

This picture was taken about a month ago, I’m about halfway back to what I consider my happy weight.

Originally, my goal was to try to get back to my “happy” weight and previous fitness level before my week-long beach vacation in August 2010. As much as I would love to reach that goal, it might not be realistic and I don’t want to this journey to be negated by a short-term goal or any quick fix. It took me over a year to lose touch with my body and to put on this weight and it  will take a long time get reach my fitness goals again. I don’t want this to be a quick fix, because I’m hoping that through this journey, I will find that skills to help me maintain the balance in my life for good.

3 thoughts on “A work in progress

  1. I am so glad to have discovered this blog. I am going through a very similar journey and have realized that it is not going to be a quick fix either and that I can’t focus on numbers. I wish you the best of luck and look forward to reading more !

    • I’m glad you found my blog too! No quick fixes – these changes are my new lifestyle. Good luck to you and don’t hesitate to share your victories or email me with questions or updates! I would love to here about your journey.

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